Do you ever feel alone but you’re really not alone? It’s a weird feeling. I want to share so much of myself but my husband isn’t really interested in my interests he says they kill his buzz. Lol He is a beer drinker and I am not so there is that. I like to talk about what could be, he lives only in the now. We have been married for twenty years now and I just like feel we are moving apart. I don’t want to live his life anymore I want to live my own. Financially I can’t afford that especially now with the covid19 soaring everywhere its making job hunting extra hard. Then again, I don’t want to work my life away. I want to enjoy life as well not locked behind a cage. (That’s what work feels like for me) Right now its not like that because my Job only has me working a few days a week so that gives me the time I need to improve all my skills.
Starting Monday, the university of Bland begins. I will start with three courses Typing, Word, and my G.E.D. I have taken the test in the past, three times but I can’t seem to get past the math. Its been so long now I have to retake the whole test so its back to the basics. I have to watch I don’t put to much on myself at once I can get frustrated quickly. I just actually looked up the G.E.D site and it pretty cool I can take the test in parts and retake as many times as I need. I’m not sure of a date yet for a goal but damn I am determined.
Just maybe 2020 will end up being the year I pull my head out of my ass and succeed. Can I become independent? I have three-year plan if I do not succeed in freedom then, I guess I am doomed to servitude.
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